When do we hit that breaking point?
Why - what is it that turns the switch.
Is it possible to live your whole life and never break? Is there actually people that live these low stress - mostly satisfied - never really challenged but also never destroyed lives? When I was 15 I worked at a Rescue mission in San Francisco's Tenderloin District. I met a boy named Calvin; he was 5. His mom locked him out of the house most afternoons to do god knows what. She locked him out, a 5 year old- in one of the most dangerous parts of the inner city. I would watch him--piddle around on the street, slowly making his way past the pandhandlers and prostitutes, finally to the mission - not scared, just lost. I ask myself what was Calvin's mothers breaking point, did she ever finally hit the bottom before it was too late? What kind of a man did Calvin turn out to be? Smarter, angry, a slave to the streets? My breaking point might be so much more shallow in view than that of Calvin and his mother - but does it break any easier? I want to be extraordinarily optimistic that Calvin didn't break, I want to believe that Calvin is not still wandering, lost.
The Tenderloin knows the struggling merchants, harbors the drug deals and feels the pain of the drunk who lacks a way or a will to survive. The Tenderloin shoulders the despair of the youth shot down by the new knowledge that a virus hides in the blood, and understands the fear that expensive drugs affordable on the floors above may be unavailable to save a life on the streets below. The Tenderloin understands that sex can be just a job and that it's the hunger from the outside, and the loneliness inside, that needs to be fed. The drunks on the corner; the old man in a wheelchair selling drugs; the undocumented immigrants who work themselves into a hidden economy and new life; the students who live here because they can't afford to live anywhere else; and the old people who have stayed because it is their home: the streets are theirs. -NewColony.com
Peace and Weed Chris
Sometimes part of what counter acts the enormous amount of jack ass' in this business of music is the occasional shinning soul. Every time I have been around Melissa Mullins I just feel peaceful. Melissa is extremely passionate about her music and is doing so many things throughout multiple music scene's to make them better and more unified. I just thought it was important today to stop an recognize someone who is truly a good human being. Check out Melissa's Music at her website : www.melissamullins.com or MySpace at : www.myspace.com/mjmullins

A friend of mine sent this to me this morning...it is some advice from George Carlin...
"The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but
shorter tempers, wider Freeways , but narrower viewpoints. We spend more,
but have less, we buy more, but enjoy less. We have bigger houses and
smaller families, more conveniences, but less time. We have more degrees
but less sense, more knowledge, but less judgment, more experts, yet more
problems, more medicine, but less wellness.
We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too
little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired,
read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom. ;We have
multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love
too seldom, and hate too often.
We've learned how to make a living, but not a life. We've added years to
life not life to years. We've been all the way to the moon and back, but
have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbor. We conquered
outer space but not inner space. We've done larger things, but not better
things.
We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul. We've conquered the
atom, but not our prejudice. We write more, but learn less. We plan more,
but accomplish less. We've learned to rush, but not to wait. We build more
computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever, but
we communicate less and less.
These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion, big men and small
character, steep profits and shallow relationships. These are the days of
two incomes but more divorce, fancier houses, but broken homes. These are
days of quick trips , disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one night
stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to
quiet, to kill. It is a time when there is much in the showroom window and
nothing in the stockroom. A time when technology can bring this letter to
you, and a time when you can choose either to share this insight, or to
just hit delete...
Remember; spend some time with your loved ones, because they are not
going to be around forever.
Remember, say a kind word to someone who looks up to you in awe, because
that little person soon will grow up and leave your side.
Remember, to give a warm hug to the one next to you, because that is the
only treasure you can give with your heart and it doesn't cost a cent.
Remember, to say, "I love you" to your partner and your loved ones, but
most of all mean it. A kiss and an embrace will mend hurt when it comes
from deep inside of you.
Remember to hold hands and cherish the moment for someday that person
will not be there again.
Give time to love, give time to speak! And give time to share the
precious thoughts in your mind.
AND ALWAYS REMEMBER:
Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the
moments that take our breath away."
George Carlin
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